...BACK GROUND...

Ok brother I have hard a very hard time finding you a back ground that is not to "girly" so I hope you like this one. Christmas came and went just like last year, sucked without you here in person as usual but I know you were here with me all of the time and made me really feel the true Christmas Spirit and I appreciate that so much. Ugh I was just blogging how I am not ready for the New Year because I want to go back in time and just stay there forever, but on the other hand I am glad to have 2009 behind us it was a tough one and hopefully in 2010 you can FINALLY send me my baby that has been waiting oh so patiently for me, so you continue to take care of them for me until then. I love you baby brother and think of you every second of every day, maybe you can try and cheer me up because I am sure everyone is tired of me being a "Debbie Downer" Miss you...

Thanksgiving...

Thanksgiving is such a hard day for me, not that any other day doesn't hurt but this one hits really close to home bud. It was always about being with our family and spending the entire day together and it feels so uncomplete without you there in person. We are all going to need you tomorrow not that you already don't know this :) I love you baby brother and miss you so very much, this all still seems so unreal to me and even after a year I just keep waiting for you to come walking through the door, I know you promised to never leave me NEVER break that promise because I need you and I don't think I could handle this if you were not right by my side helping me with every step. Well I am going to go post this on my facebook so everyone can visit your blog, and it will make Mom cry so SORRY!